What am I doing!!!!

It's been a while.. and I know.. I need more disipline. Getting job done for myself have never been possible. I am not responsible when it comes to me.
BUT!!!! if it is for someone else. I'm your man. .. enuff of my egotistical banther. I have yet to post the pics. any pics for that matter up. Not good. Dad just told me I need to give him moolah. Wonder if he will say the same thing when the lizard gets back.. I know I am fucked up and vindictive just by the thought of it but.. hey .. cut me some slack. At least they had money to get another pad rite? And its their own problem for not listening to me and renting it out earlier.

Anyways.. I just felt a need to visit and post a comment here. I am really wasting my life away and feel bad about it. I am really lost and do not know where to head.

Having dinner with Ollie tomorrow. I am seriously considering going to BKK or not. I could do with about 700 bucks of cash on hand. But after that losing mahjong session and my philosophy of life "spend all u can cos they are gonna take it from your hand" I think I will still go BKK.
2 small problems.
1) How to I tell the folks?
2) I do not have a plan on what to do there.

I could be tour guide for the guys but I m just want someone u know.. Maybe I think so much about life that I don't want to die alone.
Tis is sad. Oh well, tomorrow is another day and I am going to face it head on!

ok.. bye bye