Passengers heading west, please cross the platform...

Now that I’ve disclosed the location of these writings, words will be under scrutiny. But it doesn’t matter. Going to West side of Hua To To’s 2nd wedding... I think… anyways, she knows what makes her happy. Will be good to see the coursemates again for the air force. Weddings = red bombs. But … part of the package lah….

Since I’m westbound, I reckon I pay Mr Cheng a visit at Gone Fishing. A game of total world domination, RISK*, a game by always seems to be worth the 21buck for cab fare coming home. Hmmph.

* Risk is a game of world domination, where the object is to conquer the world. To win, you must attack and defend – attacking to acquire territory, and defending to keep it from you opponents. YES... there are no controllers in this game.

One more month to UK. Need to save $$. Better yet.. need to find James for money. Seems to be the most responsible way. Then again, who wants to party when they are 60 right?

Tons of stuff to do. And I really need to NOT have a 360 in the house.


Grand aunt is crashing with us while her house is under reno. She is part of the Grand Aunt network. Now the hours that I clock and the hours that I sleep will be known to the extended family. This means more ammo for them to push me to get a Vietnamese bride, CRAAAPP!

Btw, you my dear blog, is 1 year 1 month old. Happy belated bdae.

Getting it together

I feel my world crumbling slowly and I am helpless to struggle up to the surface of this... muck, this thick vicous crap... I can't think straight, can't focus, then again.. focus had aways been a uphill climb to me. The things I can focus of are close to unattainable. Don't we all love a challenge eh .. heh...

Its been a week since I got back. Her image still stuck in my my mine. Aren't I a robot, a machine, without feelings or emotion, my sole purpose is to exist and not think of things that may interfere with the overall process? Have I learn the ability to feel, must the be sand in my head, or the anchor in my heart that is weighing me down. I've got a week to snap back to shape. Life still goes on. One way or another as I am no longer getting younger. There are things that need to be accomplish and I need to wake up as much as I would like to stay in my slumber dreaming about her, I need to wake up....

But I miss her..




I think... I am still human after all ....

The letter that was never sent

Dear

The sight of you as the taxi pulls up starts me smiling, an action that was long forgotten, even as it was the heart of the city, I could swear the flowers around had bloom in it’s full glory. At that moment, the calmness soothes my heart.

The grin on your face sends me in a blissful stupor. As you say “hi”, your voice gives me the recollection of beautiful words that are whispered. Just thinking, 2 days full of you, how much refrain I would need, to hold back the bliss, of being near your presence. I want to hold you and tell you I love you

The sleepy look before you sleep and when you just wake, makes you the perfect Bébé. You tresses makes me want to be entrapped in them, your figure is just the ideal. Being next to you on the dance floor, I drifted away in my delusions of us being together in heart and mind. I want to tell you I love you

You make me want to be a better than better man, you make sense to the love songs on that I hear, something in you cause me to be not right in the head. Could it be I like you? I know its shameful but.. I think I like you. In every light, in every time I just want to be with you and share my life with you.

My mind is made, and you are my muse, my one and only. The light at the end of the tunnel, my holy grail. I shall push forward, with the mirage of you being my beacon. I can’t think of anyone but you. Beauties and gourmet food are bland, solely because I know you are not around. I can tell you I love you in a million ways but unfortunately I can’t be heard for I have no voice, I have no way to your heart. Nothing can change, nothing can change, about the fact, that I love you…. absolutely.


Tender Kisses,