What am I doing!!!!

It's been a while.. and I know.. I need more disipline. Getting job done for myself have never been possible. I am not responsible when it comes to me.
BUT!!!! if it is for someone else. I'm your man. .. enuff of my egotistical banther. I have yet to post the pics. any pics for that matter up. Not good. Dad just told me I need to give him moolah. Wonder if he will say the same thing when the lizard gets back.. I know I am fucked up and vindictive just by the thought of it but.. hey .. cut me some slack. At least they had money to get another pad rite? And its their own problem for not listening to me and renting it out earlier.

Anyways.. I just felt a need to visit and post a comment here. I am really wasting my life away and feel bad about it. I am really lost and do not know where to head.

Having dinner with Ollie tomorrow. I am seriously considering going to BKK or not. I could do with about 700 bucks of cash on hand. But after that losing mahjong session and my philosophy of life "spend all u can cos they are gonna take it from your hand" I think I will still go BKK.
2 small problems.
1) How to I tell the folks?
2) I do not have a plan on what to do there.

I could be tour guide for the guys but I m just want someone u know.. Maybe I think so much about life that I don't want to die alone.
Tis is sad. Oh well, tomorrow is another day and I am going to face it head on!

ok.. bye bye

Dance the night away

Uncanny thing is I spoke to AA just yesterday about this game.
Karateka

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What's in the future?

It's weird sometimes when you stand and look around in a familiar enviroment and look around ... and you feel absolutely lost. Like the world is sucked out from you and all you have is vast white emptiness. I spoken at great lengths with Boy-Man today. He preach to me God's word again. It seems strange or maybe I am letting ego go to my head but I seem to most christians here as someone who would join them, or assume I am one.

That conversation just did not help the angst that I have, knowing I would have no chance whatsoever with Miss Kwan. The language barrier is given, knowing that I still dream that I could actually have a chance with her... I am foolish.
Dammmmmm... The mouse moved on its own.. really freaky. It not just this mouse. The mouse on the other computer moved on its own as well... ee yeeerrr...

So how is it going to be? Am I doomed to settle for mediocre? Taking what I need to have? Did I choose the wrong word. Should I have taken the road of mediocracy and got married early like the people around me? Should I've not taken this path of pursuit for "happiness"?
I ask questions that no one can answer. Should I even be asking? I grow weary.

Its time to save money, after the trip to thailand with Mr Bok and Co., I would have to start tighting the belt, by exercise and saving

Things I need to really focus on
- Contact lens. ($200 ? never my glasses are shitting me no end)
- Do my teeth ($600 bucks aside for new pearly whites)
- Learn to play golf (at least learn to swing the club)
- Go on a regular exercise routine
- Club less ($$$ sucking vice)
- Read at least a book a month
- Stop playing WoW

All said and done :) .. lets do it


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much better now, though i am going to die at 61

I am much happier now compared to the previous post. Everything turn out for the better. Just need to focus now. SO...... when am i going to die?

You Will Die at Age 61

61 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Hmm.. I always thought I would die a lonely man. Guess lucky me :P