Hello again...

It's been 3 years, 7 months, 21 days since I last posted. I have to give the excuse that I fell in love.. enamored... and .. started having a direction in life, unfortunately in a shape of a women (well... she looks more a girl than a women). The fortunate thing is that it gave me direction. Given that my direction in life is similar to that of a sheep, I'll need all the motivation and direction that I can get.

Why am I doing this blog thing again (since the fad is no longer blogging) given that facebook, twitter and othe forms of electronic verbal diarrea are available on the net. I guess I needed some form of avenue for and output given that I am confuse .. again.. on the direction of life. Although being 3 years, 7 months and 21 days older than my last post, I "developed" quite a number of "skill sets" may pull me out of a rut.. at least faster than before.


How things have change over the last 3 years. It does feel good to be writing (in this case typing again) so as to upload the shyte that fills up my head. Everything changed and in the last year.. there are so many changes that.. I am not sure if everything is for the better. But I know one can only look forward, and hope to see something better...

Good to be back my friend.....

If you are feeling down, relax and try to float.

Sloth is definitely one of the sins that I’ve am absolutely guilty of. I lazy the whole frigging weekend away beside the luncheon and the visit to the very tone down lomo xhibition.

Nothing much happened depuis the last post, tells u about the excitement I have in my life eh.

Lets see…

- Got back from UK, posted me pictures on myspace,
- Paying off the 6Gs to finance my own trip. Feeling pretty proud of it.
- having mid career crisis,
- slept more… much much more.
- changed a bit of feng shui,
- still in perpetual resentment of things..
- still love music of British rock/pop influences
- still lazy
- still love a good banter with mates.
- still need to get a grip and grow up.


How dismayed.

Going to waste the rest of the weekend by playing games….. AGAIN.

What do you do when you are in quicksand, alone, with no branches to hold on to?? You sure pray, for a painless death, or a miracle. (Though the correct thing for u to do is to relax and try to float as quicksand is less dense than water and it will be easier for you to float on quicksand than water. Read about it here)

Time is never time enuff...

T-2 weeks to London. Unpack, unprepared, un-everything. This is bad. I don’t want it all to be last min but… the amount of dung that is flung to our team is … unbelievable. I think I am not satisfied at work. In a nutshell of what-rubbish-I-had-bought-over-the-last-week-when-I-knew-that-my-expenses-need-to-be-in-check-but-chose-to-push-it-aside-or-“or-bee”-to-me.
(In point form since I am on a roll with pointing out things in point form)

- DS lite (pampering at the wrong time)
- A bouteille of mar-tey (cos I needed to feel that I am a free loader)
- New glasses (back to the geek days cos I am too down to even think of women… ok..
maybe only think of one girl *blush*)
- New handphone, Nokia 6280, I think buying this Saturday
o Nokia cos half of Singapore use them and I can share charger
o 6280 cos it can take pictures on the fly
o New phone cos Nokia said that they can’t salvage the old one which when for a
swim in the sea. Her grave will be at pokka dot’s shop
- $150 haircut (need to take family photo and the boring center parting or gel up style is too
… old.. need something different)
- Bring Sandy out cos she deserve it for being a smart kid.

I guess I need to ask James for a loan. Pay dad, cos .. I don’t want to owe them money or take their tarnished money. Pfffft!

Tonite.. I will try to stay up, reply the Lizard and read up on crime in London. That should induce come paranoia. Tomorrow is gonna be a frigggggin long day. At least I may be meeting Sandy at nite. And be a turtle for the long weekend.

FOCUS MATE… .FOCUS!!

Me… out..

Random question time

Ladies and Gents, it 4 am now and I am still up. Horrible, I have to admit. But I am online for a specific reason. And at 4.07 am she comes on line. That kinda sums up a wonderful nite :) . I just caught Mission Impossible 3. not a bad show, the chick are cute and ... thats the only thing I notice :P.

Random question time:
Who is better at stunts scenes, Tom Cruise or Jacky Chan.

My answer: I chose Tom. He doesn't have a big nose, smiles more and doesn't hop around like a monkey. Not that I am racist or anything. But Jacky is not really Mr Show me the money charismatic. He always have that... ooooo.. I am an innocent bystander.. oooo I got the feats of a monkey.. bahhhh


Random question number 2:
What happens when there is 2 cubicles in the toilet and you know your boss is in one of them, and the shyte is right at the door. You know its going to be noisy... what do you do... what do you do....

My answer: This is where valve control comes in. Come on people. Have control of your body !!! .. Don't ask me about waking up, that my mind controls everything.

Since we are on a roll.. here is ....
Random question number 3:

What do you do when you have your plans fall into the gutter?

My answer: I have no idea, or maybe a rough idea. I just need a better strength, too emotional

Oooo!!! Here's one
*drum roll*
Random question number 4:

What are people classified strange/weird/bizzare.

My answer: To quote Depeche Mode " People are people, So why should it be, You and I should get along so awfully". People put you down, just brush it aside and show them the middle finger. It's hard for me to practice what I preach.. but I am working on it!!

Almost 4.30.. need my 3 hrs of slumber. Man... it is pure rambling I did there. Haizzzzz... better sleep.. .and not think so much.

Passengers heading west, please cross the platform...

Now that I’ve disclosed the location of these writings, words will be under scrutiny. But it doesn’t matter. Going to West side of Hua To To’s 2nd wedding... I think… anyways, she knows what makes her happy. Will be good to see the coursemates again for the air force. Weddings = red bombs. But … part of the package lah….

Since I’m westbound, I reckon I pay Mr Cheng a visit at Gone Fishing. A game of total world domination, RISK*, a game by always seems to be worth the 21buck for cab fare coming home. Hmmph.

* Risk is a game of world domination, where the object is to conquer the world. To win, you must attack and defend – attacking to acquire territory, and defending to keep it from you opponents. YES... there are no controllers in this game.

One more month to UK. Need to save $$. Better yet.. need to find James for money. Seems to be the most responsible way. Then again, who wants to party when they are 60 right?

Tons of stuff to do. And I really need to NOT have a 360 in the house.


Grand aunt is crashing with us while her house is under reno. She is part of the Grand Aunt network. Now the hours that I clock and the hours that I sleep will be known to the extended family. This means more ammo for them to push me to get a Vietnamese bride, CRAAAPP!

Btw, you my dear blog, is 1 year 1 month old. Happy belated bdae.

Getting it together

I feel my world crumbling slowly and I am helpless to struggle up to the surface of this... muck, this thick vicous crap... I can't think straight, can't focus, then again.. focus had aways been a uphill climb to me. The things I can focus of are close to unattainable. Don't we all love a challenge eh .. heh...

Its been a week since I got back. Her image still stuck in my my mine. Aren't I a robot, a machine, without feelings or emotion, my sole purpose is to exist and not think of things that may interfere with the overall process? Have I learn the ability to feel, must the be sand in my head, or the anchor in my heart that is weighing me down. I've got a week to snap back to shape. Life still goes on. One way or another as I am no longer getting younger. There are things that need to be accomplish and I need to wake up as much as I would like to stay in my slumber dreaming about her, I need to wake up....

But I miss her..




I think... I am still human after all ....

The letter that was never sent

Dear

The sight of you as the taxi pulls up starts me smiling, an action that was long forgotten, even as it was the heart of the city, I could swear the flowers around had bloom in it’s full glory. At that moment, the calmness soothes my heart.

The grin on your face sends me in a blissful stupor. As you say “hi”, your voice gives me the recollection of beautiful words that are whispered. Just thinking, 2 days full of you, how much refrain I would need, to hold back the bliss, of being near your presence. I want to hold you and tell you I love you

The sleepy look before you sleep and when you just wake, makes you the perfect Bébé. You tresses makes me want to be entrapped in them, your figure is just the ideal. Being next to you on the dance floor, I drifted away in my delusions of us being together in heart and mind. I want to tell you I love you

You make me want to be a better than better man, you make sense to the love songs on that I hear, something in you cause me to be not right in the head. Could it be I like you? I know its shameful but.. I think I like you. In every light, in every time I just want to be with you and share my life with you.

My mind is made, and you are my muse, my one and only. The light at the end of the tunnel, my holy grail. I shall push forward, with the mirage of you being my beacon. I can’t think of anyone but you. Beauties and gourmet food are bland, solely because I know you are not around. I can tell you I love you in a million ways but unfortunately I can’t be heard for I have no voice, I have no way to your heart. Nothing can change, nothing can change, about the fact, that I love you…. absolutely.


Tender Kisses,

Boliao post 01

A good 2 months since coming in. The truckload of work just keep piling up. Going to BKK tonite.. feels like going home .. lol .. will be a good break.. but I never could put anything down.. :( I need to learn to let go .... )

Heading to the 100 Rock concert and hopefully get some shopping done.. and hopefully some rest.

maybe becos i got DINGZ! for WoW.
muahahahaha